I have come to notice how much of a needy person I can be.
I just don't understand how people that fell out with me nearly 3 years ago is still affecting how I live my life. I thought I was past it all when I met Natasha, I began to forget about all the badness back in my hometown & began to enjoy my life without them... Little did I know I was becoming needy & dependent on Natasha! When she got a boyfriend it was like i'd been sucked right back to square one. I barely see or hear from her these days, so its just me, myself & I. i'm currently trying to make new friends at the children's centre that I take Joel too once a week. i'm also seeing a counciller so that I can get all my feelings out in the open. but at this moment in time, I don't feel like it's helping, if anything I feel like it's bringing it all back up & making things 20x worse! :s
I just want all this to go away, for me to be able to get on with my life!