Saturday, 13 July 2013
A-Z Challenge. I is for Insecurities.
My anxiety is driving me crazy at the moment. It's affecting me so much that I am beginning to push people away! my insecurities are playing up something rotten. Even after 10 sessions, not even a Councilor could work out my level of fucked up, so I decided to cancel altogether. I am trying to so hard to sort my screwed up little head out, but I can't help who I am. Being so "defensive" it's more habit for me now than anything else, because all my life i've got by with being defensive, & in all honesty, I really don't know how to change?
I want to be able to live my life were I can take things with a pinch of salt & not wear my heart on my sleeve because I have lost so many friends through being the way I am, I just can't carry on like this anymore, it's doing my head in.. I feel like I am beginning to spiral out of control & I don't know how to stop myself.