Part of me wants to get in touch with her & apologize until i'm blue in the face but I know it won't make much difference. The damage has been done - on both sides.
But also, part of me wants to see if she really does care & if she too is waiting for me to get in touch, or if she really doesn't & she actually will just walk away from me.
Dang. i'm such a mess right now. I'm not quite sure what to do with myself.
& I think I am now officially, alone.